Art is the only thing keeping me sane. I am in a really awful place mentally and it is dumb and scary and lame. Seriously all of this art I am producing lately is so great and lovely, it’s keeping me grounded during a time I would be in a bad place. Also looking at art makes me smile, and any good piece of art makes me weak in the knees.
Still on the fence about going to go get depression meds. I question if they would do anything, if I would become dependent on them or even I would remember to take them. Whatever, the option has been given to me and I’ll take it if I need it.
I’ll probably end up turning this blog into some kind of art/personal blog and deleting all of my past posts soon. (｡♥‿♥｡)
Instead of going to get help for all these scary feels I am having I buy things off the internet to distract me.
It’s working.
I’m so head over heels again it’s stupid.
My best friend left me for some cats. Oh well, hopefully seeing him on April 16th and hopefully not super intoxicated. \m/
I cannot wait for spring break. And summer break. People are just starting to get on my nerves more than ever. I try really hard to actually be nice and not let people get to me but being surrounded by people are just mean, rude, and stupid gets to a person after awhile. People who just don’t know the facts and attack someone over their oppionions. Or one of my personal favorites, “I don’t want to start an argument but, (insert really obvious subject that is sure to stir up trouble here)” I think I just need a break with some good friends, some good weed and good vibes.
But untill then i’ll just keep watching Texas Storage Wars and buying things I don’t need off the internet~
Yeah we are doing that again.
- Your name and username. - Where you’re from. - Pronounce the following words: Aunt, Roof, Route, Theater, Iron, Salmon, Caramel, Fire, Water, New Orleans, Pecan, Both, Again, Probably, Alabama, Lawyer, Coupon, Mayonnaise, Pajamas, Caught, Naturally, Aluminium, GIF, Tumblr, Crackerjack, Doorknob, Envelope, GPOY. - What is it called when you throw toilet paper on a house? - What is a bubbly carbonated drink called? - What do you call gym shoes? - What do you call your grandparents? - What do you call the wheeled contraption in which you carry groceries at the supermarket? - What is the thing you change the TV channel with? - Choose a book and read a passage from it. - Do you think you have an accent? - Do you know anyone on Tumblr in real life? - End audio post by saying any THREE words you want
I long for summer days again. Last summer I learned about loving yourself, taking care of yourself and giving your physical body everything it needs while balancing out every mental aspect of your life. It was truly a time of personal growth and love. I really need this again. Probably due to recent events in my life my mental and physical love for my body and my mind have been on a rocky path. The stress of life is taking its toll on this wall of self love I worked so very hard towards creating this summer.
Also if this makes sense a huge gaping hole has been left in my wall and i’m pretty sure my mind as yet to acknowledge it. Which is probably a good thing since I would be a total emotional wreck if my mind completely acknowledge half of me is missing. A total emotional overload.
But I digress, that’s for another day. All i’m asking for is summer days so I can sit in the quite of my own mind, take summer school and pull myself together for another year. It’s like a viscous cycle really.
